A friends with benefits I had right as I met my husband bumped into me yesterday. If I want to be 100% honest I hooked up with him once or twice before my husband and I got engaged. He came up behind me and whispered in my ear "I still remember the taste of your pussy." OMG yeah some women might find that too forward but I just about melted. I am on the fence. While I would love to go back to where we left off I am torn. I mean he ate a mean pussy. Probably the best I have had to be honest. The draw back is we never had sex. He doesn't do sex. I remember him cumming just from pleasuring me but the few times I reached for him, he stopped me. Sex just isn't his thing AT ALL. He gets nothing from it. He doesn't like receiving. I like giving and receiving. He likes giving and watching. He gets off on sharing his women. He likes to watch his significant other have sex with other men. Ben (fwb's) was overwhelming to my senses but willingly to let me be who I was at the time. I guess we hooked up on and off over a couple year span and it was fun. Sheesh the orgasms were amazing:) I still remember having to tap out and say I am done............enough! LOL
Yes I have a fantasy about being with two men. Yes this would be an opportunity to fulfill that fantasy as well.
35 year old women and what almost halfway through my sex life. Yeah I want more sex but at what cost? I settled for my husband. I really did. So fuck that shit! I am not willing to settle. At the same time I have some needs and nothing better than good oral right? See torn between old ways of feeling wanted but not willing to give my heart up. Ben really really liked me part of the reason why I pushed him away. I definitely know I can't settle for oral sex only. Then again I could just take the pleasure again.
I am just in a spot in my life where I want to go out and have fun BUT part of me wants to have someone by my side. Someone who feels lucky to be with me and I feel lucky to be with them.
I can sit here and reflect back on my life and freely admit that I have never had a healthy relationship. I really want that experience someday! I know that sounds like a silly thing to say but it is on my bucket list. HAHA Seems 90% of the men I meet are assholes and married.
So he has my email and we will see what I decide. Maybe the no sex rule is off the table. Maybe it could be a fun way to pass time but again at what cost? I am not ready for a relationship, I need to get through my divorce and fix myself. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Talk about painting yourself in a corner. :) But what really is your needs? A quick fix, a partial fix, an all night hug? Then there's your fantasy. Two dicks to service you, oops, one dick and a watcher. I don't think that would really satisfy the fantasy completely. But it still has possibilities, but then want? As long as you think it through, it should be OK. If you do make a mistake, learn from it and move on. Just don't settle because your got the itch and a new found freedom. If any of your friends has gone through a divorce, they might have some insight for you. As much as I think about having that freedom again, to do some of the things I missed out on, starting from scratch doesn't have a lot of appeal to me. But then again, I'm happy...
ReplyDeleteI like my corner.........hahaha most times. Some of my friends say hold out for love, some say get your fuck on. I was basically in a sexless marriage for the past 4 years. Honestly freedom right now is lonely. Yes, my kids keep me going but yeah sometimes it is just wanting to cuddle up and hold a hand of a man. Just have that connection of energy, maybe at this point sex is just a bonus. I could do that with Ben.
ReplyDeleteHe wanted more last time and I just wasn't feeling it. Well maybe that was the problem all I was feeling was lust. His personality does not mesh well with mine;) LOL
Go for it, how could you say no to a threesome. Hell, a man that just wants to eat your pussy and wants you to fuck other men.. where is the down side?
ReplyDeleteIf I think I know you as much as I do...........you need the cock too not just oral! No relationship yet but girl take care of your needs! With a body like that, take the pleasure where you can. Do NOT jump back into a relationship yet. Grab one of your guy friends and fuck the night away. You can handle that. Just do what you do best, I am sure if you gathered all your guy friends in a room all of them want you. :-~~~:D Just let yourself be loved and don't cloud it up with random sex. EG
ReplyDeleteH is it really a threesome if only one person is touching me and the other is just watching? If so been there done that! ROFLMAO
ReplyDeleteEG-guy friends a plenty but only one that I mess with at the present time. The rest are too local. HAHAHA I don't know if that makes sense but yeah just not feeling the lust with the local ones or I am friends with their exes etc. The last thing I would ever do is risk a good friendship over games.