Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Okay Okay explaining myself better hopefully;)

Tons of emails from my last post.

This chick has done nothing with her life except build relationships based off lust. The corner stone of my marriage was sex.  I built a relationship off of sex.  I need to do things the other way around.  I need to build a relationship off emotions, love, having things in common, seeing the world similar and having the same goals in life.  One of the things that destroyed my marriage was when I lost the only connection that I had with him..............the SEX.
I feel like I have learned a very good lesson that sex alone can't build a relationship.  I am not claiming that sex was the only thing we had but it was too big of component.  It was the only emotional connection I think I had with him.  I had this driving urge to settle and have children.  Then he became the father of my children, now he is just the sperm donor since he is not a father to them at all.  Maybe this will change in the future but I am not holding my breath.
Yes I understand that you have to be attractive to someone and have that lust but why should I start with sex? I want to like the way the think.  I want to date not just sex.
So noooooooooo not sending out naked pictures.  Not going to be emotional support for the married men in my life or the emotionally unavailable ones.  Not going to feed inner whore at the moment.
Doesn't mean I won't have sex just means that right now, I want an emotional connection first not jump into bed then try to find a connection.  Let them be surprised later when they find out I give very good blow jobs or that I could have sex everyday.  Or that I am not a one orgasm women, one just gets me started.  I want them to accept me on a personal level and love me for me, not just sex.


2 comments:

  1. You are such a sexual siren by nature that when you do meet the guy who takes you out and shows you some romance, he is going to be blown away by you in the bedroom. I know I haven't had you but you certainly sound like a treat to be devoured.

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  2. The funny thing romance feels so unnatural to me. Maybe the tomboy in me.

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